I have a really hard time working out at home. There’s far too much here that distracts me, like work for example. I truly LOVE going to the gym though, and it seems as though I finally might just have the funds to do it.

Back a few years ago when I was working for Curves for Women, I lost about 30 pounds in three months. It was a combination of working there, working out there, and doing Weight Watchers. I was feeling so amazing about myself at that point, it goes beyond words. That was the lightest I’d been since junior high (222) and while I can’t put my finger on exactly what it was that stopped me (aside from losing the job there) it was basically life’s stresses that pulled me off my streamlined progress.

In any event, TLC has been running this show all day long about morbidly obese (+500lbs.) people who go to this clinic called “Brookhaven” in NYC. My heart’s been breaking for these people. Part due to the fact that some of them just have put themselves into a literal living hell with their addictions. Part due to their insurance companies cutting them off way too soon, before they’re really ready to go home. That, in and of itself, is entirely another story for another day.

I’ve really been working on mentally preparing myself to attempt this journey again. I redesigned the site, I started posting again, I’ve been weighing every morning, and focusing a lot on my body… how it looks, how it feels, how I feel when I’m using it.

It takes at least three months for something like living healthier to really kick in as a habit, a confirmed way of living. Amazing, isn’t it, that it was right around that three month mark that I lost my way last time?

In any event, I’m really starting to feel that urge inside of me - to get healthy and feel better all around, physically, mentally, and by far, emotionally. I feel it comin’ folks… it’s gonna happen for real this time! :)

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