I’ve been eating erratically. Dealing with emotional stuff that sometimes has me gorging on fast food every single day for lunch, and sometimes dinner. Chocolate like it’s going out of style. And then other times not eating anything in a whole day other than a bagel for breakfast.

Between stress, crazed sleeping patterns, and dealing with a guy who’s got his own set of issues that are giving me issues, it’s amazing that I haven’t gained 20 pounds in the past three weeks.

Instead, I lost 5.

I don’t understand it!

Maybe it’s an age thing. My body’s reacting differently to things because I’m 30 (and a half) now. I mean, I could practically feel the hairs popping through on my chin the moment I turned 30.

A few weeks ago, I was in Avenue trying on clothes. I pulled out my normal 22/24 for a sweater, and the girls told me it was too big. So I put on an 18/20. They said it was still too big. I put on the 14/16 and laughed hysterically in the mirror as I looked at myself going “Holy shit!”

It looked great!

Of course, I bought another sweater in a 22 and it’s a little snug.

But damn.

I’m getting older, and wiser, and believe it or not, dealing with stress SO MUCH BETTER than I did when I was younger.

And the other thing that’s killing me? Three incredibly hot men… I mean, HOT MEN, all hitting on me at once. I’m only interested in one of them, the other two live too far away, and I’m already interested in the one, so I don’t really give a rat’s butt about the others. (I’ve never been a cheater, and I’ve never been a serial dater either. Once I’m into a guy, I get blinded and don’t really give much thought to other men.) But what the hell? How does this happen? To me, of all people? LOL I mean, it’s hard to deny myself that feeling of “What has happened to me that these men all want me?” Especially given that I haven’t lost much weight at all, I’m hairier (heehee), and I’m kind of a basketcase sometimes lately.

The thing is that the one guy I’m super into is just trying my patience. I’m a really understanding and compassionate person and all… but everyone has limits, you know?

Anyway, just needed to get all that out. I’m grateful to the Universe for bringing me what I’ve asked for, but damn… let me take it all in! LOL

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